October 13 1975

I have these memories I don't know where they come from. They are like dreams when I am awake. And they make me feel like I am missing something. I know they are pieces of a single time. I just have never been good at puzzles. I don't like not knowing where these pictures come from inside of my head. The last thing I remember is sitting on a boat in the water with another little girl. Does this have something to do with my water dreams I have at night. I don't know. I think so. All I have to do is remember my dreams, and the pictures in my head and put them all together.

Maybe one day I will understand why I don't feel like a real girl.